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Asaban & Psbanisma Day turned into days, month into months soon the year will turn into years. Under the cave of lights, a darkness; well laid shaping the lights. There came an angel with her beautiful smile, extending the hand to that darkness devil, Asaban. With all the might, he had to resist, his proudness, arrogance were all felt to the angel, Psbanimsa. Even when she was in tears because of Asaban, she never ever thought of giving up. Erasing the darkness within him was impossible, that's what she realized. But he slowly had a change in heart, he was slowly getting better and better until the day he saw Psbanimsa turn to dark because of him. The depth of darkness of Asaban was too big for Psbanimsa. HE realized , he should push her away to being an angel rather than accompany him in the dark. But SHE was already consumed by it. There began the clash of darkness to darkness LEAVING no light behind. And the world was dark for Asaban & Psbanimsa. Asaban, still figh...

Words, they just flow from within; processing with the memories. The deeper the memories, stronger the words impact. Talking about memories, I am sure there was at least a good one of us. 😅😅...  There had been a time; I made you cry. And I wasn't able to hold you up..too clumsy(I guess).Well, this part has been same.Nothing changed.(well for me.) Life takes twist & turn. Definitely, this society is survival of the fittest. Without "Being the water", one would never be able to survive. Given the chances, to live with everything you want, you still want more. That's what we humans are defined for:'The Greed". Wanting to be at the top & looking down on everyone else that's what humans want & if you are lower than anyone else you are sure to be envious. Here, humans are for: "The Envy". Getting back to the topic, I once began to feel I'm bad as a human being. I regretted each & every decision I ever took(barely took a good ...

Why would I say? "NO"(OR How should I?) She had been the most wonderful thing that had happened to me. One wonderful day, with her cheering smile,  She asked me,"Will you be mine forever?" Well, Why would I say? "NO" Being with her was the blessing for me Cuddling me in front of the fire, She asked me,"Will you travel with me to Paradise?" Well, Why would I say? "NO" She had been my addiction for days now Days were going fine but insecurities on the line, She asked me,"Will you always love me like this?" Well, Why would I say? "NO" Fights after fights, and insecurities arose Getting back together every time, She asked,"Will you ever be mine?" Well, Why would I say? "NO" One day after another, thought it would be better Talking in the phone She asked, "Will you miss me?" Well, Why should I say? "NO" #post #slap4msth

Relation: A drug; Being Single: A rehab "Relation is like a drug & being single is like being in rehab."That one statement I made to a friend last night. This created flashbacks, like in a movie with detailed specific moments with her. I was tired enough to fall asleep even with these wild cerebrations.  The next day when I woke up, I was almost into tears,not knowing what woke me up. I could feel myself happier but yet the tears trying to fall down through the cheeks. Curse the reason why I woke up; That was a wonderful dream after so long. I was in a building too high from ground level, wondering why I was there. I could see construction materials, unfinished messed site before I saw her coming to me with her wonderful smile. She kept coming closer to me; the gap never closing between us. The moment, I began to think I can't reach her  & frown, before I could wonder what happened, we were hugging one another. Crap!!( what now? ) I could feel my senses b...

*******************POOR EDIT******************** *****************************#slap4msth*************************************** (Her feelings that I can't edit, even if she asked me to, Her feelings gave deeper vibes than my edit do.)_________________----_------ #SJ971030 *****************************CAN'T EDIT*************************************** Yes, it's been a year since we separated; toughest year for me. Few months, I didn't even know if I was living. I don't know how it went!!!!!!!!! Few days passed, thanks to the voicemails I've saved. Well, those photographs of us that I helplessly stare, those sort of things, I guess, is what kept me alive. Every place I go, memory of us walking hand in hand, follows me all the time. I still remember how much I loved to be in your arms. Those smiling faces we had it all the time, was it less than a paradise?? Looking back in time, all I can see is "How much you loved me". We meant ev...

THE REMINISCENCE ; CHILLS HER EYES GAVE THE SMILE SHE KEPT ; THOSE MEMORIES WE MADE THE REMNANT ; BLACK CLOUD , WILD THUNDERS SCATTERED TRACES & THE FEAR NO GLIMPSES WHATSOEVER THE RENDEZVOUS ; A MYSTERY NOT UNVEILED YET SKY FULL OF CLOUDS EVERYWHERE WATER POUR ; TO HEAVENLY HELL THE QUALM ; CHILLS GIVING EYES; THE SMILE GOT TO CRAVE ;  THE MEMORIES ; THOSE WERE THE ONLY WE MADE # slap4msth *** Comments are welcomed **

Crush!!!! Once again 5 of us messing up the easiest of exam went to out for the burger to cheer us up. Now, that we placed the order there my eyes met her, the burger girl. She smiled & so did I. Is it my age? That I felt, she was my crush . 15 minutes passed & the burger was yet to be served, I looked at her hundreds of time by then & all she let out was a sweet smile. Now, she was smiling at me that I was the joker around. Just when I was to confirm, I really have a crush on her; a cute girl with her little brother, mom & dad came in & placed the order. Now, I was totally concentrated on her. The gossip between 5 of us was going on but my eyes couldn't leave her. Dressed smile & sweet, with cute face like that, she is the perfect teen. With a silver Tee & black jeans, she looked like the angel from the dreams. Am I bragging about her? I don't think I've even explained a percent about how she looked!!!! She didn't give a l...

"Move On?" She told me to move on "Wait, what?" (How am I supposed to do that? When she is all; going with me.) "Why, why do I've to do that?" "I don't wanna hurt you anymore." (Can you listen to what you're saying? That doesn't even make a sense.) How do I tell her? All I ever wanted in my life is you. Hurting me ? When did she do that? All I remember is love & care. What do I even say? When; She told me to move on. Sweetness, Sadness,Sorrow Love, Life,Loneliness Now, they start to haunt me down No wonder, lifeless I've become A moving corpse is all that I've become When; She told me to move on. "No, I can't." (Tears all over my eyes.) "I love you so much." (Now, the tears began to fall.) "But I don't. You gotta move on." (Her words were harsh. But her eyes couldn't deny.) #acnologia

How many more times does he need to be hurt?  Yet pretend nothing matters to him.  How many more times does he need to put up a fake smile? When ,in fact he's dying to go out with her. How many more times does he need to hide the tears? Just to tell her,"It's alright, go out with that guy." How many more times does she break his heart? Yet he smiles & says ,"That's ok." Why does he have to believe everything she tells him? Even when the excuses were so lame!! Why does he trust her so much? Even when she pierces his heart every time. Why is it so hard for him to believe? She is out of his league. Why does he have to give all of his time to her? Even when he knows she don't even care. When will he understand? Understanding pain is a art. When will he understand? Fake consolations are not what he needs. When will he understand? Mangoes are the mangoes. When will he understand? She don't even want him as her friend. -...