Relation: A drug; Being Single: A rehab

Relation: A drug; Being Single: A rehab

"Relation is like a drug & being single is like being in rehab."That one statement I made to a friend last night.
This created flashbacks, like in a movie with detailed specific moments with her. I was tired enough to fall asleep even with these wild cerebrations. 

The next day when I woke up, I was almost into tears,not knowing what woke me up. I could feel myself happier but yet the tears trying to fall down through the cheeks. Curse the reason why I woke up; That was a wonderful dream after so long.

I was in a building too high from ground level, wondering why I was there. I could see construction materials, unfinished messed site before I saw her coming to me with her wonderful smile. She kept coming closer to me; the gap never closing between us. The moment, I began to think I can't reach her  & frown, before I could wonder what happened, we were hugging one another.

Crap!!(what now?) I could feel my senses but my visioned been totally ruled out ,she is lost & it's all darker now. I lost sight of her just like that, millions of thoughts flew in ; Don't know what it was but quite sure that "Misery" "Despair" "Frustration" calling me out loud,"YOU ARE  A LOOSER."

I took some moment to hold myself together. (*A deep Breath*)".This is my dream, this is not how it is supposed to be. I plan my dream & it should go my way; I am not a looser; not at least in my own dream world."
(Sc**w those thoughts)
Once again, I was back to where I was lost. Dream World ; it sure was my own. I can feel her again & she is within my sight now. I hugged her even tighter this time not to let her go ever again.

("It's been so long (long, long)
That I haven't seen your face
I'm tryna be strong (strong)
But the strength I have is washing away (way)
It won't be long (long)
Before I get you by my side
And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you
Tell you what's been on my mind"

                                  -Right now(Na Na Na) / Akon)

Everything zoomed in,(*Zoop**Zoop*) she was looking into my eyes & I was already lost into hers. (Closer , closer & more closer.)Yes, definite yes. We were going in for a kiss..................

I couldn't help but curse the reason why I woke up &  realize what a looser I am. Even when it was my dream, it never seemed mine. Here I am, I loose a lot but don't wanna loose to myself ever again. 

("When the wind is blowing in your face
And the world world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love."

                      -Make you feel my Love / Adele
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