Memories

                                                Memories

Here I am talking about you once more; It’s been so long since I last saw you. I’ve always been thinking of you , don’t you get hiccups? I can’t forget to miss you. I would like to write all of my feeling in this blog. But I won’t , I can’t let anyone know how I feel for you coz it’s only for you. When these hiccups come to you; make sure you remember me. I’m waiting for you here all alone. Don’t you remember how we used to hang out all the day but now all that left is the silence and hatred deep down us inside. Is our love that weak that a single fight would end it up?

NO! Never! I won’t let you ruin our bond up so easily. I need you by my side maybe I’m too selfish but I want you just for me. I was so glad that I found you by my side but didn’t know it was just for a certain moment. Don’t know how to survive this pain without you. I feel so hard deep inside; Without you I can’t even fake up a smile. Is it coz I love you too much? Or is it that you come to hate me up? I tried to cool myself up but without you these words won’t stay quiet; It’s coming out on own sorry I can’t survive this disaster without you. I never needed you more than I need you right here with me. I could care less about whoever says whatever to me but I’m too crazy for you Baby!!Never thought this December would feel me up with this pain.

You walk away from just for no reason; Was your feelings for me a fake? All those times we spent are just a little memories that you love to make? Do you think walking away from me will let you free from my love? That ain’t gonna happen I will love you more & more as the time passes by also after my soul leaves this body. My soul will love you even after it is destroyed in after world. Leaving me and walking away  just like that? NO. How could I possibly let you do that? Well, all I can do is hope for you to come back to me. I’ll always be passing by that park where I first saw you. No matter what happens to me I’ll always love you unconditionally.

It’s been a while  I have heard anything from you. I never thought in my wildest imagination you would ignore me, you know that pain right? It sucks really. I’m experiencing hell without you.

Sometimes when I get hiccups I think those were coz you were remembering me somewhere far away. And your face pops out in front of me; I tried to kiss it but it fades away.

Your smile, your shiny hair, beautiful eyes, soft cheeks I would love to watch them all day long. Your acts, your caring behavior, your loving way, your time with me; They are all saved permanently in my memories. And these memories are what I don’t want to lose till my death even after my last breath. I kept on dreaming fairy tales about us being together and living happily ever after but I guess there really is no happy ending. All I can hope is you would realize how much I loved you and come back to me sooner.

The fight we had; those were the worst possible scenarios you know well right? We should have figured it out with little understanding. I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings. Yes! I was being stubborn ,a jerk, a shithead whatever you would like to call me but I always loved you more than anyone and anything. I just wanted to ask for a little break between us;